Hello. Yesterday, my meeting with Shima was postponed to one of the days this week. And we'll break fast together for sure. I was tutoring Shukur's cousin Primary 2 maths. I'm tutoring her again this afternoon. I miss scoring full marks for that subject. Obviously, it's impossible for me now. I can only hope that i did well for Prelims. So far, I've gotten my English Paper 1 marks. The score was 39/60. I need to improve on my situational writing skills. This one week of holiday, I sure hope I'll revise on my Humanities and Chemistry. It's this both areas I want to improve and do well.Today's the start of the fasting month. I'm really geared up for it and for sure, I'll do my prayers more frequently. Heh.
Back to yesterday, after tutoring, headed to Jurung Mrt and meet up with Shukur ♥ Upon arriving at Semb, we took a long route to Canberra Park. We talked things out yesterday and poured out our feelings all. I coudn't stop breaking down. I'm an emotional wreck person. But, I guessed the tears was all worth it cuase our conversation ended off well. And i know, for sure, after yesterday, I'll no longer have 1001 questions bubbling up in my mind and I'll move on from there. Deep down, I know we still do care and love for one another. It's what matters most to me. By 11, we parted with a tight tight hug and seconds of kiss (:
NSBA♥ , after reading your latest post, it had me reflect back on whether I have been your true bestfriend for all this nine years and so. Have I ever been there for you when you needed someone to confide in? Have i ever been there for you to cheer you up and wipe away your tears? Have I understood your wants and needs? Have I ever been lending my listening ears and listen to all your problems? Have I ever been such an egoistic and selfish friend? Have I been your friend whom you can really lean on and talk to? Your post made me question myself, do you deserve someone better than me? I know I have my flaws and I know, it will cut me deep if I were to hurt you in anyway by my actions or words. I will bleed if I see you cry and I will definitely be worried if my bestfriend is hurting when I'm not the one feeling the pain. You're the last person in my mind that I do not wish to see you hurt and be hurt by me. I'm sorry for any of my wrongdoings and I'm sorry if I hadn't been there for you. For all you know, I'll be glad and willingly to overcome your problems with and get rid off the burden inside you. I have all my time for you cause I know you have never fail to be there for me. It's not the matter of repaying back all your deeds you've done for me, but it's our friendship that matters most and the love we share. I'll lose a part of me if I lose you. I know there's always a saying that friends do come and go. But if we put in efforts to make the friendship works, there's no ending to it and there will never be. Don't ever think that I'll come running to you only when I need you. With or without problems, you've always been whom I want to to talk to and share about anything. And I'll never get you off my head cause it's your laughter and jokes that bring smiles to my face and your advices have kept me strong. I'm no stranger to you but a bestfriend and always be. Tell me your problems and I'll listen. I love you with every ounce of my heart ♥